I need to write more.
I'm not sure there's enough emphasis on the imperative here. I'm not saying, "gee, I really SHOULD write more." I'm not saying I NEED to write int he same way I NEEDED that piece of cheesecake I snuck yesterday. I'm very blatantly saying I NEED to write more, in the same way I need air and water and food. I'm dying without it... emotionally, if not physically.
For so much of my life, writing defined who I was. It put my overactive imagination to use and gave it an outlet to keep my head from exploding. Over the last several years, I feel like I've beaten that muse out of myself - I don't know how or why, and it wasn't really intentional, but through self-censorship and, to be honest, some laziness, my creative spark is definitely in critical condition.
A few days ago, I had what I've referred to since as a "plotlette" pop into my head. It's not really an idea, because it's pretty concrete, and it's not quite a plot of its own. It's a quote, really - or more of an exchange. It's short and concise and maybe fifteen words long, but I feel it tells a story in those few words. Perhaps more importantly, I feel it creates a thirst for MORE story. It leaves layers upon layers of QUESTIONS, and they've been rolling around in my head for days, teasing my imagination and coaxing my muse out of hibernation.
The obvious choice, to me at least, is that I attempt to win NaNoWrimo in November for the first time. I've had... 2? 3? 4? attempts, but only one even made a decent show of it, until the end of the semester (and, for me, the end of the course of my undergraduate university studies) derailed my efforts. I haven't even attempted for the last few years, though the desire to complete the challenge has never left me. I didn't connect to the local writers or general modus operandi of the group in Orlando the way I did in Gainesville, but I'm willing to give it another try.
The inherent problem with this, however, is that it's barely mid-September. I fear that if I suppress this urge I've finally rekindled for another 8 weeks, I may kill it off again. But, if I start it too early, I can’t use it for NaNo and may lose my motivation for THAT, then. However... nothing is stopping me from writing something ELSE every day. I’ll stretch my literary muscles! And I’m not limited to fiction... I can write blog entries, poetry, commentary, reviews... anything I want! I might accidentally start doing it all the time again! That would certainly beat incessant Facebook statuses and my daily string of tweets....
My "Idea Generator" seems to have run out of steam, however, and I could definitely use some ideas, or directions to some resources, on that front, however. I think I'm going to set an initial goal of 1000 words a day. 1000 words of anything with a coherent purpose... blog entries, letters, poems, short stories, etc. Blurbs aren't going to count... I need to set some standards! But when 1000 words gets easy, 1500 will soon after, and so on.
Let’s reinvent ourselves through writing, shall we?
PS - This was 587 words. Good start, Self!